thoughts and emotions

FUCK THIS SHIT
i cant sleep anymore. all i do is think. im slipping back into my old habits.i dont care, and it seems like noone else does either. so fuck it
if  no one cares then why am i still here.
soooo...this is it...im gone
you wont get ahold of me.......the only way you could is if you come seaching for me..i doubt you guys will.













goodbye and goodnight

these feelings are getting worse and worse
i just have to wait and see what happens in my life. it seems that all i am anymore is a bother to people, i never have any money, i always need a ride, it justs seems that everyone is sick of me. maybe i should just stay at home for awhile and not bother anyone.
its getting really lonely in my mind and i cant escape it.

my dreams are becoming more and more present in my mind as well, and i dont know what to make of them.













o well

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

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Moving in slow like the smoke from your cigarette,
Every step a closer's a step that we both will regret,
Keeping a tally, but who can keep track?
Your overreacting is taking me back to a time better left alone,

Holding onto the phone,
Holding onto this glass,
Holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
Waiting for better words,
They'll never come.
So dry your eyes,
It's better,
Now it's done...

Keep a tight grip like a child holding onto a swing set,
Waiting and hoping to find what I can't figure out yet,
Please don't unless this is something to me,
Another nightmare instead of a dream,
Better left alone,

Holding onto the phone,
Holding onto this glass,
Holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
Waiting for better words,
They'll never come.
So dry your eyes,
Its better,

Holding onto the phone,
Holding onto this glass,
Holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
Waiting for better words,
They'll never come.
So dry your eyes,
Its better,
Now it's done...

I never lost so much...
I never lost so much...
I never lost so much...

Holding onto the phone,
Holding onto this glass,
Holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
Waiting for better words,
They'll never come.
So dry your eyes,

Holding onto the phone,
Holding onto this glass,
Holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
Waiting for better words,
They'll never come.
So dry your eyes,
Its better,
Now it's done...

You scored as Buddhism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Buddhism. Do more research on Buddhism and possibly consider becoming Buddhist, if you are not already. In Buddhism, there are Four Noble Truths: (1) Life is suffering. (2) All suffering is caused by ignorance of the nature of reality and the craving, attachment, and grasping that result from such ignorance. (3) Suffering can be ended by overcoming ignorance and attachment. (4) The path to the suppression of suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, which consists of right views, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right-mindedness, and right contemplation. These eight are usually divided into three categories that base the Buddhist faith: morality, wisdom, and samadhi, or concentration. In Buddhism, there is no hierarchy, nor caste system; the Buddha taught that one's spiritual worth is not based on birth. </td> Buddhism 96% paganism 58% Hinduism 58% Islam 38% Satanism 38% agnosticism 38% atheism 33% Christianity 25% Judaism 21% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

life is great



















........♥..........thinking of you...........♥..........

o my god this is creepy..........

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 45 people about this game.
• kerri is the one that you love.
• nikki is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about brian.
• matt is the one who knows you very well.
• gabe is your lucky star.
• the outfield-your love is the song that matches with kerri.
• underoath-when the sun sleeps is the song for nikki.
• rise against-swing life away is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and senses fail-buried a lie is the song telling you how you feel about life
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Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that its time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

well.........
im keeping myself busy with photoshop and this time im getting paid to do this...which is great.
i had a poblem with tasha yesterday but like always it worked itself out in my mind..so its all better.
i had a very peaceful meditation last night brought alot of confusions into the light.
mmmm....basically my life is slowly getting better.
i have to wake up early friday so i can take my car into hansards and fix it.

this journal is for friends that i chose.......unless i really want you to see my journal i wont add you.